Amanda

11:40 pm: wow.......
so its been a long frinckin time since ive posted.... i dont even know what to write about. ummm... jeff and i got an appartment. and a puppy. shes frickin crazy. but most of you probably know about all that already. got a new cell phone and a new job. ummm...yea. life has been pretty good. besides the little fights here and there me and jeff are good. i signed back up for dance classes. im really excited about that! i start tuesday. amys in my class so that should be cool. ummm.... my sisters ok i guess. im a little worried about her sometimes but i dunno. shes at that age where shes gonna do stupid stuff i guess. my birthday is in 1 week!! hopsfully we will go out or something. i miss everyone! i used to go out all the time and i rarley do anything anymore. lol man i feel old! well i guess thats about it for now..... ill be back sometime soon.

~*~ me ~*~

09:18 pm: bored at my moms....
DON'T CHEAT- TYPE THE FIRST 20 PEOPLE YOU CAN THINK OF OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD...
20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head:

1. Jeff
2. Ashley
3. Madeline
4. CJ
5. Brian (bro)
6. Mom
7. Dad
8. Manny
9. Dopey
10. Screwdriver
11. Foodang
12. Julia
13. Jamie
14. Bryan .W.
15. Rose
16. Amanda
17. Scottie
18. Stece .C.
19. Alaina
20. Aunt Linda


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Don't CHEAT by going back and changing the person you wrote down!!

How did you meet 13?
She lives across the street from my grandma

What would you do if you never met 5?
ummm... not know my brother...

Have you ever had a crush on 3?
lol no i dont like little girls

Would 4 and 11 make a good couple?
lol no

On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
8

What language does 10 speak?
Street

Who is 8 going out with?
nobody that i know of

When was the last time you talked to 18?
wow! umm.... 2002 or 2003

Does 2 have any siblings?
yes

Would you ever date 7?
no thats just not right

Is 15 single?
nope

What is 4's middle name?
jason?

Would 7 and 19 make a good couple?
nope

Whats 16's favorite color?
brown

What school does 8 go to?
???

Where does 9 live?
In the tp

Would you make out with 1?
yep

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
no

What is your history with 20?
shes my aunt... and i look up to her

Do you like 17?
yea, hes a trip

Whats your status with number 3?
my little sister



alright kids.... not im going home taking some nyquil and passing out!! ttyl!

07:52 pm: so not much has been going on. had surgery last week so i missed work everyday but monday. did not want to go back today at all. dont ever want to go back really. ive been looking for a new job latley. got a new car. its a pos but it will get me where i need to go for now. got a gym membership i was going everyday almost but since i was in pain all last week i havent been there. i need to go back soon. ummm... my little sister had her first dance recital on sat. it made me realize how much i miss it. i wanna sign up for a hip hop or jazz class when they start again. not much else has been going on. me and the b/f are doing good. everyone keeps asking me why i never come out anymore, maybe ill take a night to myself and go out sometime.... i dunno. i just dont feel like partying like i used to. what else.... ummm.... its been two and a half months since i quit smoking. :) nobody thought i could actually do it but i did. havent had even a hit of one. however i did have a few dreams about it. lol. the old roommate amanda went back to smoking though. oh well. we kinda fell out. dont ever hang out anymore, barley even talk. new roommate... i dunno just some of the things she does... i cant stand! sometimes i wish amanda never moved out. oh well what can ya do?? well thats about it.... ill post again later......


me

09:28 pm: If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

09:08 pm: well since i have no computer at home and im at my moms visiting i decided to update really quick.

theres not much thats going on latley. just working pretty much and spending time with jeff. thats about all i do anymore but its all good because he makes me happy. :) ummm lets see.....

my brothers over in iraq along with manny. :( hopefully they are both doing alright. im sure they are though they are both strong ppl.

quit smoking.... its been 2 months well it will be on the 25th. so im proud about that. :)

parents are getting divorced so thats not good. i dunno. i guess shit happens. theres not really anything i can do about that one. my mom really isnt taking it too well so i kinda feel bad but like i said theres not really anything i can do.

havent really heard from sheana or jamie or anyone really so that kinda sucks. last time i talked to both of them i was in the hospital and they said they would come see me and never came so that kinda made me feel like shit expecally since i was there by myself most of the time. i dunno what that was all about but it would be nice to hear from you guys...

ummm... julia had her baby a few months ago she will be 3 months tomorrow :) and my cousin in prego now so im excited for her.


yea i dunno.... there isnt that much to talk about. i really havent been depressed at all anymore. somehow jeff seemed to help me out alot. dont know how he did it but im very thankful. i think i was just about to that breaking point and then everything seemed to turn around.


i guess thats about it ... im probably wont be on again soon but ya never know...

amanda

08:18 pm:

Long Survey About Yourself
Created by bleedwithoutreason and taken 71890 times on Bzoink
What time are you starting this?	752 pm
Name?	amanda
Nicknames?	mandi, manda, sped, deps
Date of birth?	9/15/84
Sex?	female
Height?	5'5''
Eye color?	blue and green they change
Where were you born?	michigan
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?	21 well if there were candles on it
Pets?	not right now
Hair color?	brown
Piercings?	ears
Town you live in?	clinton township
Favorite foods?	italian
Ever been to Africa?	nope
Been toilet papering?	yea
Love someone so much it made you cry?	yea
Been in a car accident?	yep
Croutons or bacon bits?	croutons
Favorite day of the week?	saturday
Favorite resturant?	olive garden
Favorite flower?	rose
Favorite sport to watch?	basketball
Favorite drink?	captain morgans
Favorite ice cream flavor?	choc. chip cookie dough
Warner Bros. or Disney?	disney
Favorite fast food restuarant?	wendys
Carpet color in your bedroom?	tan
How many times did you fail your driver's test?	none
Whom did you get your last email from?	my dad
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?	deb or american eagle
What do you do most often when you are bored?	talk on the phone
Most annoying thing to say to me?	????
Bedtime?	whenever i pass out
Favorite TV show?	law and order and rescue me
Last person you went out to dinner with?:	the family
Been out of country?	only to canada
Believe in magick?	sure
Ford or Chevy?	chevy
What are you listening to right now?	im not ok by my chemical romance
Have you ever failed a grade?	no
If you have, what grade did you fail?
Do you have a crush on someone?	yea
Do you have a bf/gf?	no
If so, what is their name?
How long have you been together?
What are you wearing right now?	my new outfit
Would you have sex before marriage?	already have
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?	no
Are you a virgin?	no
Do you smoke?	yea
Do you drink?	yea
Are you ghetto?	lol no
Are you a player?	no
What are your favorite colors?	pink and orange
What is your favorite animal?	dog
Do you have any birthmarks?	yea
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?	no never been in a fight
Who do you talk to most on the phone?	jeff
Have you ever been slapped?	yea
Do you get online a lot?	not anymore
Are you shy or outgoing?	a little of both
Do you shower?	lol uhhh yea
Do you hate school?	i used to
Do you have a social life?	kinda lol
How easily do you trust people?	not easily at all
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?	i dont think so
Would you ever sky dive?	prob not
Do you like to dance?	yes
Have you ever been out of state?	yea
Do you like to travel?	yea
Have you ever been expelled from school?	no
Have you ever been suspended from school?	no
Do you want to get out of your hometown?	yea
Are you spoiled?	no
Are you a brat?	no
Have you ever been dumped?	yea
Have you ever gotten high?	lol yea
Do you like snapple?	sure
Do you drink a lot of water?	yep
What toothpaste do you use?	colgate
Do you have a cell phone?	yep
Do you have a curfew?	no
Who do you look up to?	my aunt linda
Are you a role model?	i dunno
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?	yea
What name brand do you wear the most?	american eagle
What kind of jewelry do you wear?	silver
What do you want pierced?	i want my nose repierced
Do you like takin pictures?	yea
Do you like gettin your picture taken?	sometimes
Do you have a tan?	kinda
Do you get annoyed easily?	no not really
Have you ever started a rumor?	not that i remember
Do you have your own phone or phone line?	yea
Do you have your own pool?	no
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?	boxers
Do you have any siblings?	yep
Have you ever been played?	yea
Have you ever played anyone?	no
Do you get along with your parents?	yea
How do you vent your anger?	i usually dont
Have you ever ran away?	no
Have you ever been fired from a job?	yea
Do you even have a job?	yep
Do you daydream a lot?	not really
Do you have a lot of ex's?	no
Do you run your mouth?	no
What do you want a tattoo of?	dont know
What do you have a tattoo of?	dont have one
What does your ex bf/gf look like?	ummm a guy
What does your most recent crush look like?	he looks like himsef
Whats her/his name?	jeff
Have you ever been bitched out?	yep
Are you rude?	i dont think so
What was the last compliment you recieved?	that im beautiful
Do you like getting dirty?	ummmm....
Are you flexiable?	not as much as i used to be
What is your heritage?	polish german french
What is your lucky number?	7
What does your hair look like right now?	straight
Could you ever be a vegetarian?	prob not
Describe your looks?	i dont know....
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?	brown
Would you ever date someone younger than you?	i have before
Would you ever date someone older than you?	yea
When was the last time you were drunk?	last night lol
How many rings until you answer the phone?	depends on how close i am to it
Have you ever been skinny dipping?	ehh halfway
If yes, when was the last time?	prob in june
When was the last time you went on a date?	well i dunno if it was a date or what but a couple weeks ago
Do you look more like your mother or father?	mother
Do you cry a lot?	yea kinda not as much as i used to though
Do you ever cry to get your way?	no
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?	i have no clue
Are you the romantic type?	yea
Have you ever been chased by cops?	yea lmao
What do you like most about your body?	prob my hair or my eyes
What do you like least about your body?	my weight
When did you have your first crush?	i dont remember i think it was like 3rd grade lol
When was the last time you threw up?	thursday lol my bday
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?	usually brunettes
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?	no
What about cleavage?	yea
Is your best friend a virgin?	no
Have you ever fucked someone up?	no
Have you ever been fucked up?	no
What theme does your room have?	it doesent really have one
What size show do you wear?	huh??
What is your screen name on AIM?	socochick15
How are you feeling right now?	confused and just dumb lol
When was the last time you were at a party?	a party ??? uhhh prob last weekend
Have you ever given a lapdance?	no
Have you ever recieved one?	no
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?	yep
What is one of your bad qualilties?	smoking and im too nice sometimes
What is one of your good qualilties?	ummm.... im a good listener and i try to help ppl as much as i can
Would you marry for money?	no
What do you drive?	lol nothing right now my pos broke down
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?	daddys
So?	huh?
Well?	wtf?
When was the last time you cried in school?	dont know
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?	no
What kind of music do you like?	pretty much everything
Would you ever bungee jump?	maybe
What is your worst fear?	death and being alone
Would you ever join the army?	cant
Do you like cows?	lol sry that just reminded me of my roommate
If you were to die today, what would you do?	i would want to tell everyone goodbye
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?	depends on who it was
Do you like to party?	yep
Hearts or broken hearts?	hearts
Moons or stars?	stars
Coke or pepsi?	pepsi
Favorite scent?	vanilla
Favorite band?	dont know
Would you ever dye your hair red?	prob not
How many languages can you speak?	1 lol
What time are you finishing this?	813 pm
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yea im bored ..... :(

05:45 pm: whats new......
well... my birthday was on thursday (the 15th). the big 21! it went good. i had a pretty good time. went up to snookers and played one fuckin game of pool for an hour and a half! lol yea we couldnt play for shit that day. its all good though. drank a few beers, then we went and got a fifth. lol. drank that in like an hour!! needless to say i was pretty hammered. lol. then i started spinning so i went and made myself puke like 3 times lol but its all good. i guess i was supposed to puke it was my bday.

so yea.... other than that there hasnt been too much new. theres kinda a guy but i dont really know whats gonna go on with that. im just all confused. trying not to fall for him but its not working out too well and i just dont wanna getting hurt like usual. and its not even him its me. like i know the situation but i cant help the feelings that i have and if i do get hurt its gonna be my own fault. and it really sucks. i mean hes a great guy and he makes me laugh all the time and i cant help but to smile even if im just on the phone with him. he just makes me happy. ahhh, i dunno. this always happens to me and i just seem to make it worse. i just need to stop thinking about it.....

so yea.... other than that things have been pretty good. havent been all depressed for a little over a month maybe 2. so thats good. i hate when i get like that. ive just been happy latley so i havent really been thinking about shit. nick called me out of the blue about a week or 2 ago. that was kinda weird but whatever. he said he wants to hang out but i really dont think thats a good idea. i mean i know i broke it off with him but then when i realized that i shouldnt have i beat myself up over it and thats not good. and i really think im finally over him now. i mean last time i had a chance to hang out with him i said no because i didnt wanna get all fucked up in the head again, i stopped calling him and ive been fine. so yea, dont think i should hang out with him. what else...... works been alright. i was kinda upset cuz there was a few ppl that i was sure would remember my birthday but didnt but its all good. im over it. ummm... yea i dont really know what else to write about so i guess im gonna go for now.....

~*me*~

08:05 pm: whats goin on latley.....
well i havent updated in a while. i dunno. ive still been all depressed. dont know why. went through a pretty bad stage a few weeks ago but i dunno. its like when im with friends and stuff im fine but when im alone or when i get to thinking about shit i get all depressed. like really depressed. i dunno. ive been thinking alot and i think im gonna try to go see a counselor or something. i asked sheana if she would go with me if i decide to go and she said yes, so thats good. i really dont wanna go by myself. i dunno ive just been down alot latley and eveytime i call someone to talk theres something that the gotta do or they dont answer.... its always somethin. so i really dont even try calling anymore. i mean shit. sometimes i cant sleep and night and i wanna talk to someone but something always happens. i dunno. maybe its just me thinking that everyones against me or some dumb shit like that, who knows. i dunno.

but anyway... this weekend was pretty good. friday was gay and then sat i had to work. so that sucked. some dumb ass kids were going through my house. i wanna hit these fuckers now. damn that pisses me off. but they were gone before i got home so theres not much i can do. im just glad erica woke up when she did. but sat night was pretty good. hung out with sheana for her 19th bday. we picked up mike and kevin and went to the bar. dopey and jeff met us up there. then killa came right around midnight. it was pretty fun. well everything was cool till we left the bar. i barley remember leaving the bar which is messed up cuz i dont think i drank that much. i guess its cuz i barley ate that day, i dunno. but anyway... i rode with sheana and jeff back to my house. sheana was supposed to stay the night but she didnt, dont know why. i guess when amanda got home i was half sleeping half crying. i dont know what the hell happened. woke up and there was white castle in the fridge i thought amanda brought it home but i guess dopey bought it. i dunno. i was so confused when i got up sun. anyway... yea the night was fun at least. i had a blast. i told sheana that we were gonna get drunk and we did... a little more than drunk we got wasted lol but it was all in good fun.

but im about to go... leave me some love guys...

me

12:55 pm: well im sitting here all sick being bored out of my mind so i figured i would update this thing. alot of shit is changing latley and not necessarily for the good. i dunno i just feel like everything is falling apart. ive been getting really wasted on the weekends and getting all emotional and its not good. ed just left the other day moved out of state for a while. me and him got pretty close in the last few months and i feel like im losing my brother or something. and jay moved for a job too. he came back for 2 weeks andnow hes leaving again today. so im all sad about that too. my brothers cj and brian are both gone and i dunno... i keep thinking about nick. and i fuckin hate it. i cant get the kid out of my head and its driving me crazy. i guess i called his sister and i cried and cried to her and told her all this shit about how i love him and blah blah blah and i dont remember none of it. i feel like the biggest asshole now. i dont know. i just dont want to get bad like i was before doing stupid shit. i need to quit getting depressed but every time something good happens something worse happens. and i just cant take the shit anymore. i hold in everything until i dont know what to do anymore. then i get all drunk and emotional and i hate it. i dont know.... i think im just gonna go now.... ill update more later....

06:51 pm:

Your Birthdate: September 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable. This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research. You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.